宁静致远

刚才不知为什么，想起了在老复兴蒸饭的情景。那时候还有几次忘了往米里放水，结果整出来一盒子硬米粒，只能脸色僵硬地另找法子解决午饭。还有那不能称为球场的球场，男孩们为了过球瘾时常踢着网球。

昔时有两位好友现在已无联系。我这人不擅长和人打交道，钻进自己的世界里有时候就不知道出来。其实我不知道为什么会突然想起这些写下这些。

昨天的肉馅还有好多剩下来，于是晚饭做了饺子。皮做得厚了，不过还算有嚼劲。明天空手道等级考试，已经考过两次了，不过还是8级，主要是换流派的关系。

最近课程项目进展不顺利，但是不顺利也没办法，还是一样加把劲。

周日和今天为了减肥所以没怎么多吃东西，今天晚上空手道之前喝了两杯咖啡连连厕所导致水分不足，所以训练的时候直冒冷汗两眼冒金星。又饿又渴又倦（还得继续熬夜写code）之后，决定还是好好吃东西。要是真的训练的时候晕过去那就太搞笑了。

这样的婚礼实在是太有喜感了。。。

周末吃多了。。。南瓜粥和家常豆腐的组合出奇意料的丰盛，而我又馋，没忍住多吃了好几口，结果胃撑得不行。。。orz

周末正事没做多少，看佛法看了一堆（当然都是入门级的）。跟着念楞严咒，跟了一半就不行了。不过念咒的声音让我想念原先每年在普陀山过年的情景。家里杂事多，只希望大家都能平安。多念念两句佛，不求得什么福报，若是能把那些折福的事儿抵了就好了。哎，那也不是可以人为的事儿。

I’m heading to Sunnyvale for the Thanksgiving long weekend. I don’t have classes on Tuesdays, so I will be back on next Wednesday morning. Vance has already laid out a plan for me. I’m sure it will be fun.

喉咙不舒服。对门的女孩半夜还吵吵闹闹的，估计是刚开学他们没什么事情做。昨天看了一天的paper（当然也有偷懒的时候啦）， 今天继续看。paper层出不穷，不过总有理出头绪的时候。两个课程项目我都已经有点想法了，下星期跟老师们谈谈。

感觉自己还是慢慢走上正轨的。

中午准备烧一堆pasta sauce，蘑菇、熏肉、红椒、洋葱。晚上弄个黄瓜炒蛋，准备个色拉。嗯～

I’m back in Waterloo.

I no longer feel what bound me to Canada in the past few years - the drive for getting the degree(s). I have my undergraduate degree now. Though getting a Master’s degree is also in the original plan, I somehow hold a much more indifferent view towards it at the moment.

The trip back to Shanghai made me realize how much I have given up for this degree. Somewhat too much, I think. Of course I have gained a lot as well. We gain some and lose some as we make different choices. There is never a right or wrong choice, since we don’t have the chance to go back and try out another one. The path I’ve chosen for the past few years sometimes makes me wonder if I’m really running after the things that matter in my life, the things that I want the most, the things that can shape me into a better person.

And it’s too late to wonder. I have already made my choices.

If only we could fly back in time.

I’m a plan freak.

Things (not related to school or work) that I’d like to do this summer:
1. Resume Spanish study. (finish Harray Porter? seems a bit ambitious)
2. Resume Karate practice.
3. Improve English pronunciation.
4. Take at least one photography course (B&W printing, lighting, or portraiture).
5. Train for 5K. There is a competition in Toronto in October.

I also need to figure out my paper work, as well as my thesis topic.

今天琳屁和我聊天，说我该瘦了。我头上很大一滴汗。虽然忙碌得很，但是也是暴饮暴食，外加没有运动（整天就坐着锻炼手指了），所以虽然没有怎么大胖，但是绝对也是没有瘦的。而且我觉得肚子上的肥肉还是有渐长的趋势。。。

所以我决定周一开始又要进行减肥计划了。。。orz

昨晚毕业晚会，没去，蹲在教室里写编译器（当然其实不是蹲的），进度还是跟不上。今天一天也没什么很高的效率，明天早上5点45就要出门，我觉得搞不好今晚就不睡了。。。

I will probably develop an eating disorder before I finish writing my travel diary.

Estoy aquí, pero mi corazón no esta aquí.